Y he haben call ley??! >.< 1 Am liao...
dunno wot his nick in msn means... "Wats love gotta do" *shrugs*
woke up and logged on msn... baby's nick was "Are you gonna leave?plz dun..cuz i need you and i would be (U)...But if u muz i will respect u.." and theres a pic of us. MmmMMm Awww *melts* so sweet
I wish we didnt have to fight anymore.
I wish we could be lovey dovey like before until everyone also cannot tahan.
I wish his lips are coated with abit more hunny, his actions filled with more hugs n kisses.
I wish he would hold my hands each time i get upset, and give me his shoulders.
I need him to be around.
I love him. Alot.
Perhaps he wouldnt understand how much pain is involved each time harsh words are spoken.
Perhaps he wouldnt understand how my heart died each time he stab me with those words.
Its getting weaker, but i'll still hold out, as long as my heart continues to beat, as long as love continues to flow, as long as both of us doesnt give up.
We will get married someday, somewhere, somehow.
Tonight has been juz another tormenting night.Been thinking about Us... Sigh...He said.. Ive been spending too much time with him that he has no time to do his stuff sometimes.. Am i wrong to want to give him all my time before he enters the army? Y do i miss him so much each time i dont see him, and y does he keep saying "of coz, Timothy phee ley what to expect"
Spoke to Ric n Caresse... got to know abit more bout tim alright, which i guess is quite true..
Resse said : he's like tt.. when he likes a girl.. he'll go all da way .. as it goes on.. it dies off..unlike dale n roy...they're always consistent...
Ric said :u see.... thats his weakness...he likes a girl thats keeps interesting him...thats y he wants surprises from u..he lyks things that are unexpected...something that shocks him n makes him happy...that only problem is that.... there only so much u can do..that's just his character.. he likes things that are new....or something that constantly changes..take his car for example..he finds it boring...but when he can take it apart... and modify it... he likes it again...he likes something that constantly changes....so suprise him...
Will he ever leave when im not longer interesting to him? Perhaps he can take apart a car and then modify it, but me? Its not easy to come up with surprises to keep a guy interested, but i'll try. EVen tho i feel that if the guy is juz interested in what u can surprise him with.. its not good.
Resse said : i think u guys r quite a good match wat..ur exactly the kinda girl he's looking for...tt's wat he told me....n tt's wat i noticed..when u guys started out not too long ago..like a few mths...he told me tt he met the most suitable girl for him...n he nv loved any1 as much as her..tt girl is u..
i cried when i saw this msg.. thats when we juz met.. a few mths into it.. sweet n bitter memories, its juz so sad.. I love him to bits, but does he cherish me? I heard he's a playboy, and nothing keeps him interested for long. Im so so worried. Maybe its beginning to happen now, he's losing interest. He isnt that all anxious anymore. I could wait hours before he called, i used to not spend enuff time with him, now im spending too much time with him. Oh gosh y is this happening, its tearing me apart. Maybe i shld leave before he leaves me, he doesn even whisper he loves me so much in my ears anymore.. or ask me not to leave him. or those sweet msgs he used to send.. i dont want the reason hes with me is becuz i treat him good, not becuz he still loves me.. What shld i do what shld i do what shld i do.. everything feels so different.. i wan to know how he feels bout this.. but all he says is he respects my choice.Not what i quite wanted to hear, would it be "Please stay, i need u.. "
Sigh im juz wallowing in my self insecurities, Perhaps ric is right, i should spend more time with my friends, while i still have them, while they still care. oh damn, i juz feel so upset i tink im gonna cry myself to sleep tonight.
HeY.. someone folded a heart of straw for my baby.. n passed it to him in da cinema when we're all watching show.. a girl.. my friend... n hey.. sometimes our male friends n my baby has overnight mahjong or partying session n she was the only girl who stayed. Shes my friend.. but hey.. i still feel weird. : (
Today we chopped and burned Badboy. Omigosh~ so much to chop n so much to burn. Im talking bout a tree (Gos knows why its called Badboy). Its a plant in a desert.. but was growing at the back of my baby's garden. Died of Over-hydration (well.. a term invented by me). After that, theres these yucky sticky juice tat kinda sticks under my feet and stuck all the dirt up as well.
>.<
Today's an average day too.. WAs supposed to meet my baby at 3 pm.. but he had to get smth at SLS with paul.. so since i had oredi left the hse when he called to tell me the change of plans.. i went to lot1 to shop. Got a burner dish for him, as well as a really cool side pouch.. um for his xdall or HiMD..whichever he wants to put. OH gosh i spent like $80 on MINITOONS so tat i can get a member card (tat was pretty dumb but oh wells so cute the stuff).. can u believe? um.. biscuits n cute stuff. And a Windproof ashtray for his mom. Well i spent quite sometime at minitoons..n was late to meet my baby at Bishan.
Sigh.. he didnt take it quite well.. n decided to go home instead. I was like at Kranji.. n he didnt wanna wait that 30 mins for me to reach Bishan.. Told me to go Newton instead. I almost cried in the train, i tried so hard to hold back my tears. How could he.. When he has tuition i waited, when he has facial i waited, when he was late i waited, when he overslept i waited, when he has to fix the roof n paint the glutter i waited, when he has to shift the fish tanks n paint them i waited, when he did his MD i waited, when he has pool i waited, when he was tired becuz he didnt sleep the whole night before n slept during the day, i waited, waited for him to wake up 8 hrs later, from morning til evening. And when he said for 30 mins he couldnt wait. That tore me apart. Sigh..Why am i doing this..I bought him presents, only to have him shouted at me cuz i was late.
My Aussie pics!!! ahhhrgghh damned harddisk wouldnt boot. Dam Damn Damn! >.< i hope its gonna work else all my memories~~!!
Its funny how things can change in juz a short while. All these while, feelings that seem right suddenly went wrong. can someone tell me whats going on?? Was it a mistake right from the start? I love this guy alot.. but it seems that the path is getting more and more trecharous, and the way dimmer n dimmer. Future was something i looked forward to.. but now.. with who? He said i hardly get him anything.. Perhaps its the way he is. Dont i buy him lunch? He said is the little things.. Dont i care enough to get the thnigs he need me to get? Dont i get afraid he's hungry? When he's sick dont i rush to buy medi n stuff? do i not care? Who cares bout the shirt he said i dont get when he has all he needS? Why do i bother knitting what i think he might like if a shirt is what he wants? juz to add to his already piling collection of new shirtS? Why do i bother? Do i even bother to feel appreciateD? sometimes i dont even feel that way. Ive been trying to save up for a nice christmas present for him, now why do i even care? That i didnt want to waste that little bit juz to get a decent present and a nice dinner for my baby. I dont want to tell him that in the face. Its no excuse not to get him the little thnigs he wanted every now n then. Perhaps, Im a bad gf. Ive chosen a nice prezzie oredi, yet again.. who cares.
Name: Joanne
Age: 20
School: LPS,RVHS,JJC,NTU,SIM
bday: 18 Jan 1985
[[ The Wishlist ]]
[[ More Aboutt Me ]]
My Boii
My Boys
My O'tahz
Us!!
New phone!!
Rebonded hair!!
DigiCAm!!
A huskii puppy!!
Y he haben call ley??! >.< 1 Am liao...
dunno wot his nick in msn means... "Wats love gotta do" *shrugs*
woke up and logged on msn... baby's nick was "Are you gonna leave?plz dun..cuz i need you and i would be (U)...But if u muz i will respect u.." and theres a pic of us. MmmMMm Awww *melts* so sweet
I wish we didnt have to fight anymore.
I wish we could be lovey dovey like before until everyone also cannot tahan.
I wish his lips are coated with abit more hunny, his actions filled with more hugs n kisses.
I wish he would hold my hands each time i get upset, and give me his shoulders.
I need him to be around.
I love him. Alot.
Perhaps he wouldnt understand how much pain is involved each time harsh words are spoken.
Perhaps he wouldnt understand how my heart died each time he stab me with those words.
Its getting weaker, but i'll still hold out, as long as my heart continues to beat, as long as love continues to flow, as long as both of us doesnt give up.
We will get married someday, somewhere, somehow.
Tonight has been juz another tormenting night.Been thinking about Us... Sigh...He said.. Ive been spending too much time with him that he has no time to do his stuff sometimes.. Am i wrong to want to give him all my time before he enters the army? Y do i miss him so much each time i dont see him, and y does he keep saying "of coz, Timothy phee ley what to expect"
Spoke to Ric n Caresse... got to know abit more bout tim alright, which i guess is quite true..
Resse said : he's like tt.. when he likes a girl.. he'll go all da way .. as it goes on.. it dies off..unlike dale n roy...they're always consistent...
Ric said :u see.... thats his weakness...he likes a girl thats keeps interesting him...thats y he wants surprises from u..he lyks things that are unexpected...something that shocks him n makes him happy...that only problem is that.... there only so much u can do..that's just his character.. he likes things that are new....or something that constantly changes..take his car for example..he finds it boring...but when he can take it apart... and modify it... he likes it again...he likes something that constantly changes....so suprise him...
Will he ever leave when im not longer interesting to him? Perhaps he can take apart a car and then modify it, but me? Its not easy to come up with surprises to keep a guy interested, but i'll try. EVen tho i feel that if the guy is juz interested in what u can surprise him with.. its not good.
Resse said : i think u guys r quite a good match wat..ur exactly the kinda girl he's looking for...tt's wat he told me....n tt's wat i noticed..when u guys started out not too long ago..like a few mths...he told me tt he met the most suitable girl for him...n he nv loved any1 as much as her..tt girl is u..
i cried when i saw this msg.. thats when we juz met.. a few mths into it.. sweet n bitter memories, its juz so sad.. I love him to bits, but does he cherish me? I heard he's a playboy, and nothing keeps him interested for long. Im so so worried. Maybe its beginning to happen now, he's losing interest. He isnt that all anxious anymore. I could wait hours before he called, i used to not spend enuff time with him, now im spending too much time with him. Oh gosh y is this happening, its tearing me apart. Maybe i shld leave before he leaves me, he doesn even whisper he loves me so much in my ears anymore.. or ask me not to leave him. or those sweet msgs he used to send.. i dont want the reason hes with me is becuz i treat him good, not becuz he still loves me.. What shld i do what shld i do what shld i do.. everything feels so different.. i wan to know how he feels bout this.. but all he says is he respects my choice.Not what i quite wanted to hear, would it be "Please stay, i need u.. "
Sigh im juz wallowing in my self insecurities, Perhaps ric is right, i should spend more time with my friends, while i still have them, while they still care. oh damn, i juz feel so upset i tink im gonna cry myself to sleep tonight.
HeY.. someone folded a heart of straw for my baby.. n passed it to him in da cinema when we're all watching show.. a girl.. my friend... n hey.. sometimes our male friends n my baby has overnight mahjong or partying session n she was the only girl who stayed. Shes my friend.. but hey.. i still feel weird. : (
Today we chopped and burned Badboy. Omigosh~ so much to chop n so much to burn. Im talking bout a tree (Gos knows why its called Badboy). Its a plant in a desert.. but was growing at the back of my baby's garden. Died of Over-hydration (well.. a term invented by me). After that, theres these yucky sticky juice tat kinda sticks under my feet and stuck all the dirt up as well.
>.<
Today's an average day too.. WAs supposed to meet my baby at 3 pm.. but he had to get smth at SLS with paul.. so since i had oredi left the hse when he called to tell me the change of plans.. i went to lot1 to shop. Got a burner dish for him, as well as a really cool side pouch.. um for his xdall or HiMD..whichever he wants to put. OH gosh i spent like $80 on MINITOONS so tat i can get a member card (tat was pretty dumb but oh wells so cute the stuff).. can u believe? um.. biscuits n cute stuff. And a Windproof ashtray for his mom. Well i spent quite sometime at minitoons..n was late to meet my baby at Bishan.
Sigh.. he didnt take it quite well.. n decided to go home instead. I was like at Kranji.. n he didnt wanna wait that 30 mins for me to reach Bishan.. Told me to go Newton instead. I almost cried in the train, i tried so hard to hold back my tears. How could he.. When he has tuition i waited, when he has facial i waited, when he was late i waited, when he overslept i waited, when he has to fix the roof n paint the glutter i waited, when he has to shift the fish tanks n paint them i waited, when he did his MD i waited, when he has pool i waited, when he was tired becuz he didnt sleep the whole night before n slept during the day, i waited, waited for him to wake up 8 hrs later, from morning til evening. And when he said for 30 mins he couldnt wait. That tore me apart. Sigh..Why am i doing this..I bought him presents, only to have him shouted at me cuz i was late.
My Aussie pics!!! ahhhrgghh damned harddisk wouldnt boot. Dam Damn Damn! >.< i hope its gonna work else all my memories~~!!
Its funny how things can change in juz a short while. All these while, feelings that seem right suddenly went wrong. can someone tell me whats going on?? Was it a mistake right from the start? I love this guy alot.. but it seems that the path is getting more and more trecharous, and the way dimmer n dimmer. Future was something i looked forward to.. but now.. with who? He said i hardly get him anything.. Perhaps its the way he is. Dont i buy him lunch? He said is the little things.. Dont i care enough to get the thnigs he need me to get? Dont i get afraid he's hungry? When he's sick dont i rush to buy medi n stuff? do i not care? Who cares bout the shirt he said i dont get when he has all he needS? Why do i bother knitting what i think he might like if a shirt is what he wants? juz to add to his already piling collection of new shirtS? Why do i bother? Do i even bother to feel appreciateD? sometimes i dont even feel that way. Ive been trying to save up for a nice christmas present for him, now why do i even care? That i didnt want to waste that little bit juz to get a decent present and a nice dinner for my baby. I dont want to tell him that in the face. Its no excuse not to get him the little thnigs he wanted every now n then. Perhaps, Im a bad gf. Ive chosen a nice prezzie oredi, yet again.. who cares.